Wednesday, December 25, 2013

childhood of jesus

It just so happens that I finished reading this book on Christmas - a mere coincidence. 

I rarely pay attention to reviews because I can come to an opinion on my own, thank you very much. But these seem to be more than reviews - on the back cover they are called 'praise' and are words of reverence from others who share my respect for this man. 

He is 'a novelist of ideas' whose books 'explore what it means to be human'. 'Exceptionally intelligent'. 'Master of his medium'. One cannot write so sparely and yet so powerfully without having mastered his trade. He whittles it down so you read only what is needed to understand, without excess to distract you from the most important point he wants you to see. You come out with your world expanded. Not the physical world, but the more difficult to reach inner world - the psychology and emotions of humanity. He captures all of humanity in seemingly simple novellas. Again and again. And hopefully again some more.  



Thursday, November 07, 2013

out west

... where everything is ginormous. 



(there's a person in that one)


(and that one)

reflections



I know - so many beautiful angles you feel a little discombobulated. 

And magic mirrors. 






And...


What?! Are you kidding me? You've gotta zoom in. 



Sunday, October 20, 2013

let the artist lead

In Living Beautifully Pema Chodron opens by quoting Agnes de Mille:

Living is a form of not being sure, not knowing what next or how. The moment you know how, you begin to die a little. The artist never entirely knows. We guess. We may be wrong, but we take leap after leap in the dark. 

It captures the Alice in Wonderland method. It captures the scientific method. It captures the Buddhist method. 

It's the answer to why you may not be where you were supposed to end up. It's not that you made a mistake. It's that you followed a different process. Because that's what you consider the point of it all to be. 


Sunday, September 29, 2013

haven't we moved past this?

This article angers me. An outsider redrawing borders still in this day and age?! Believing you understand it? Clearly you don't when you can write "Arabs are abuzz..." ALL ARABS agree? 

Idiot. 




Wednesday, September 25, 2013

so long, see you tomorrow

From Maxwell's book, a perfect line that captures that feeling of intimacy in the middle of the crowds (see 2 posts back):

New York City is a place where one can weep on the sidewalk in perfect privacy. 

Friday, September 20, 2013

lahiri schmiri

Did anyone read this? She's such a pain in the ass. She couldn't simply answer the question but had to point out the faults in each and every question (and then sometimes answer it even though she had just finished arguing it wasn't a legitimate question). She had to be above it all. When I heard her read years ago she did this with the audience - she was condescending and dismissive. And she has no basis - genius she is not! 

AND the second line of her answer was her saying she read the English translation then the Italian original. I don't think anyone asked. So full of herself. At least there's some justice in the portrait drawing that makes her look crappy. 

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

hello

Hello Empire State Building, hello Chrysler, hello intimate moments in the midst of the masses. I'm home now, and I've never used that word lightly. 




Thursday, July 04, 2013

good-bye

Good-bye Park Ave, good-bye Elysian Cafe, good-bye Garden of Eden, good-bye Malaysian waitresses who knew me like a friend, good-bye waterfront.

Good-bye, Bwe Cafe. It was so brief, but yet so true.


And, finally, good-bye to this space. You kept me dry and warm and held up even through Sandy. Silent grace.

Saturday, June 22, 2013

badasses and smartasses

My little almost five year old niece gets into a bumper car with her mom and says - let's do this.

She put on a play and started off with - please turn off all of your electricities...

My almost 9 year old niece says to her dad - no, YOU'RE the sloppy copy. I'm an American original. Ah first generationers. 

Sunday, June 09, 2013

latinas

Innocently (and desperately) waiting for my nails to dry, I noticed the caption:

What You Should Never Say in a Fight

What?! Then I noticed it was Cosmo for Latinas. Como?! Is this ok? Is this insulting? Fierce?

Monday, May 27, 2013

from the other side

Not as clean a view, but love is love from any angle.



Sunday, May 19, 2013

zen and the art of motorcycle maintenance

I don't know how to put this in any other words or to summarize or highlight. In a sense, it is staying true to the book to not define it further. And so I share some excerpts.


In each case there's a beautiful way of doing it and an ugly way of doing it, and in arriving at the high-quality, beautiful way of doing it, both an ability to see what 'looks good' and an ability to understand the underlying methods to arrive at that 'good' are needed. Both classic and romantic understandings of Quality must be combined.

... people who, though stylish, don't know where to start because no one has ever told them there's such a thing as Quality in this world and it's real, not style. Quality isn't something you lay on top of subjects and objects like tinsel on a Christmas tree. Real Quality must be the source of the subjects and objects, the cone from which the tree must start.

Now it's time to further an understanding of nature's order by reassimilating those passions which were originally fled from. The passions, emotions, the affective domain of man's consciousness, are a part of nature's order too. The central part.

What really counts in the end is their peace of mind, nothing else. The reason for this is that peace of mind is a prerequisite for a perception of that Quality which is beyond romantic Quality and classic Quality and which unites the two, and which must accompany the work as it proceeds. The way to see what looks good and understand the reasons it looks good, and to be at one with this goodness as the work proceeds, is to cultivate an inner quietness, a peace of mind so that goodness can shine through.

This inner peace of mind occurs on three levels of understanding. Physical quietness... Mental quietness... But value quietness, in which one has no wandering desires at all but simply performs the acts of life without desire, that seems the hardest.

That which turns its back on this inner calm and the Quality it reveals is bad maintenance. That which turns toward it is good. The forms of turning away and toward are infinite but the goal is always the same.

Right thoughts produce right actions and right actions produce work which will be a material reflection for others to see of the serenity at the center of it all.

... Someone who connects with Quality. He gets filled with gumption... A person filled with gumption doesn't sit around dissipating and stewing about things. He's at the front of the train of his own awareness, watching to see what's up the track and meeting it when it comes. That's gumption.

The gumption-filling process occurs when one is quiet long enough to see and hear and feel the real universe, not just one's own stale opinions about it. But it's nothing exotic. That's why I like the word.

These false images are deflated so rapidly and completely you're bound to be very discouraged very soon if you've derived your gumption from ego rather than Quality.

Aretê implies a respect for the wholeness or oneness of life, and a consequent dislike of specialization. It implies a contempt for efficiency - or rather a much higher idea of efficiency, an efficiency which exists not in one department of life but in life itself.

The Good was not a form of reality. It was reality itself, ever changing, ultimately unknowable in any kind of fixed, rigid way.

Along the streets that lead away from the apartment he can never see anything through the concrete and brick and neon but he knows that buried within it are grotesque, twisted souls forever trying the manners that will convince themselves they possess Quality, learning strange poses of style and glamour vended by dream magazines and other mass media, and paid for by the vendors of substance. He thinks of them at night along with their advertised glamorous shoes and stockings and underclothes off, staring through the sooty windows at the grotesque shells revealed beyond them, when the poses weaken and the truth creeps in, the only truth that exists here, crying to heaven, God, there is nothing here but dead neon and cement and brick. 

man booker

The Booker Prize is the one literary prize I value most. No question about it (except for The Life of Pi - for the life of me I can't understand the appeal).

So, I was super impressed to learn recently that the same author won 2 Booker Prizes 3 years apart for 2 books in a series. Holy shit that's good.

Then, oh joy, I see she is making her way through Alice Miller!! And it all makes sense. Adding her books onto my list!!

Saturday, May 18, 2013

arrested development

It's goodness and Quality* being rewarded. It's justice balancing out the wrong that was done to the Bluths. The Kardashians may be flashier, but flashy doesn't always win out. The universe every once in a while rights itself.

I saw one with Buster that just said 'hey, brother'. Genius.

* see earlier note or future entry on Quality with a capital Q













yuppie

Finally. A yuppie coffee shop in Hoboken.

A few years ago, on Long Beach Island, I embraced my inner yuppie. I accepted it wholeheartedly into my fold when, stranded far from civilization, I could not find anything but horrible drip coffee. I understood then that I had to be willing to own the name or else find myself abandoned by the side of a road without Quality* coffee. I could not accept that risk.

* capital Q as a result of Zen and the Art... (future entry will elaborate)



Tuesday, May 14, 2013

DC in images






The Kramerbooks' window display hasn't changed in all these years. Everyone still poops it seems.





simple

Resonance around the appreciation of simplicity.

And I see shortness of books as a proxy for that simplicity.



Monday, May 13, 2013

at home in the universe

A separate place for those I love most. My heart was racing as I circled these again and again and again. And again.

The feet grounded and strong, the bodies lifting up as the legs push down. Yoginis in that way. But they say so much more. Not silence when I look at them, but chatter - the chatter of millions, all from one place, all saying the same thing. It's the rumbling that is white noise in the background of the universe. The sound of all souls across time humming, buzzing, or, if you'd prefer, ohming.











home again

How is it that every cell in my body tingles in a silent shout out of joy as soon as I approach this building? How did my body know I had come home? And what part is home exactly? Have I lived here in a previous life? Do I thank Pei? Or Giacometti? Calder? Rothko? Hadn't I met them all before I arrived to this place?

Is this the Quality that he talked about in Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance? (More on that later.)








Saturday, May 11, 2013

on aloneness

What hurts relationships is the idea that there is someone responsible for you and that you are responsible for someone. While the practical side may work out (i.e. an agreement that one provides outside the home and the other inside the home) it does not work on the emotional side (i.e. NOT you take care of me and I give up that responsibility to myself and vice versa).

What's difficult is that at the start of the relationship you WANT to be responsible for someone, want to bear gifts, shower them with love, want to be important in their lives. And so you take on some responsibility out of a generosity that overtakes you (being in love).

And that makes the person happy and you give more.

But there needs to always be the distinction that while you give and they receive you are not responsible for their needs or their joy. They are responsible, and they may, out of that responsibility to find contentment, decide to be with you because that is where they feel safest and where their needs are met.

But they should not - I repeat NOT - hand that responsibility over to you because you are able to meet it or because it fits the job description of a role you've taken on (e.g. spouse).

It is not about being so self sufficient you decide to be alone. It is about letting go with them to let those needs be shared (vulnerability) and be met (trust) while holding onto the responsibility for yourself and leaving the responsibility for them with them. The rest will come.


From Osho:

The capacity to be alone is the capacity to love. It may look paradoxical to you, but it is not. It is an existential truth: only those people who are capable of being alone are capable of love, of sharing, of going into the deepest core of the other person - without possessing the other, without becoming dependent on the other, without reducing the other to a thing, and without becoming addicted to the other. They allow the other absolute freedom, because they know that if the other leaves, they will be as happy as they are now. Their happiness cannot be taken by the other, because it is not given by the other.

Thursday, May 02, 2013

the future city

Why this is intriguing, I can't say. I can't even give the artist credit because I have no idea whose work it is.

This is how we know it.

The future city.

Wednesday, May 01, 2013

chicago

Without a doubt it's got an 'it' that's its very own.

(There's a Frank Gehry tucked away in the last one.)